sorry guys, haven't been doing what i set out to do (which is to blog everyday) since everyday is rather routine.
something happened during work place which sort of made everybody rather unhappy. i think i've just screwed up my own work and there's nothing much i can do about that. wanted to say hi to one of the supervisors but he just treat me as if i am transparent. that's the cruelty of the real world. one wrong move and you will never be able to get back up. i was too careless and overpampered. now is the time to grow up, to learn to adapt to the new world, the world whereby no one will give you a second chance. sometimes, i wonder what i should do. should i continue to put all my heart into the work or should i just give up and do the minimal required. i thought about it yesterday actually and was very tempted to do the latter. reason being, why work so hard when everybody else is not working that hard. however, my principle is to give my best shot because it only requires a little more effort. why not give it and make everybody happy. that was what i think. i don't know why i started to falter on this principle when this thing happened. it was my fault. i have no one to blame. i deserved it. but i felt upset over it. why did i feel this way? i am not sure. i will grow out of this eventually. one more month and i am off this place. a learning ground for me over here that i am an adult now; no longer a youngster where people gives 2nd chance. i was too naive to think that people will give a 2nd chance. this is not the first time such things happened. i have always been taking all the things i do for granted.
i just wanted to rant; to give myself a piece of mind.
i think i will still do my best to help even though people may not appreciate it anymore but i should not care about that because what happened has happened. even if no one appreciates it, i can tell myself that i already did my best and there's nothing more i can do. if the world is really a world that only picks on mistakes, i learnt it the hard way. it is good in a way because i won't be coming back anymore and i don't have to face them anymore. maybe this is known as running away from the problem. from young, i have always been doing that.... until now, i am still doing it. i can't believe it. is it a human instinct to run away from problems or does the problem lie with me. am i not couragous enough to pick up the responsibility? i wonder..... i have to solve this problem of mine by hook or my crook. i wonder.....