it's been about 6 days since this blog is updated so i shall update once in a while. actually, i will be going off to china while banedon will be going off to australia so if i didn't update today, the blog will be likely to be left blank for another week.

i just found out that hk's disneyland has not opened yet and only subjected to bookings. was feeling a momentary sadness since i was looking forward to see it. it's NEW that's why i want to see it. but another reason of why i wanted to be there is because it was sort of like a childhood dream for me personally. even though i am already 20 this year, i still want to fulfil my childhood dream. it is a kind of satisfaction for me to achieve that even though i am not a child anymore, even though i don't get fascinated by disney characters anymore. (when was i fascinated with them in the first place? beats me...) so i think i will only be able to go there next year or so. who wants to go with me can just write on tagboard and preferably know where to go in hk. heehee.... just kidding...

something else that i found out from my friends was that they have childhood friends or otherwise known as imaginary friends. do you all have one too? due to my ignorance of what is an imaginary friend, i asked her for what is a imaginary friend. she told me that she must be kind, friendly and good hearted. the perfect friend....

if i could choose, i would want to have such a friend but reality always stings and it is impossible to find one. maybe it's just singapore where interest always comes as the top priority, grades are the goal for all and being rationale is a must. it is a survival of the fittest arena, the darwin's evolution theory (mm lee mentioned it after independance) even when marriage is concern, people choose practicality over pure love. there are always exceptions but it is too rare to be mentioned anymore. who wants to have an ugly girlfriend? who don't want a bradd pitt? who don't want the perfect figure partner? who wants someone who is stupid? someone told me it's the chemistry between two but i would render that person as being a hypocrite because from what i know, chemistry is not the only factor that brings people together. do chemistry die down after a while? yes, i would say. to keep the chemistry going, i believe that both have to work towards a common goal, it will be better to have a common interest. sometimes, people think they love their partner but is it a form habit that makes them feel that. so think carefully before you say anything

for those who aren't in love yet, please don't dream a perfect person since they never existed. expectations lower chances and increases conflicts. it's rather logical if you have thought about it. when expectations are too high, you may just missed a great person with something they can't do about it. conflicts increases because you would not be satisfied and expect your partner to do better than what they have. your partner will feel inferior as the days goes by, thinking whether they are suitable for you. anyone who wants to challenge my string of thoughts will be utmost welcomed to do so since i have loads of time to think about this stuffs now. (have been regularly updating blogs since i know i will be unable to do so when school starts)

ohh sorry, i have diverted too far... but i am too lazy to think about imaginary friend anymore since they don't even exist and it would be a waste of time to think about something that never had existed.

so without disneyland, i would be only be going to ocean park which i heard is very boring and i am certainly not looking forward to it. will also be doing some shopping over at hk so hope that i will be able to get some cheap stuffs over there. guangzhou should be nice since it is more developed and i would be willing to see another form of chinese culture altogether. the last stop should be my ancestral grounds and i may be living up in the mountains. haha.... hope it won't be too cold since my last experience at alishan (in taiwan) has made me have an "unforgettable" cold experience. *shivers* i still can remember that i forgot to go under the thick blanket they provided and it made me toss and turn for the whole night. sheeze...
if i could get a camera, maybe i could upload some pictures for you guys. haha... (wondering whether i should start a diary of the china experience, just a random thought cause i should be too lazy to do so) actually, i should have extended my stay since i have a teacher over at suzhou. she was willing to pay everything for me including accomodations and food and whatever things and even tour me around. maybe i should do so next year when i go to hk. shall tell her about it. :D

i can't believe myself planning for next year's holidays when i haven't gone for my trip yet.
my plan after graduation/honeymoon:
europe backpacking. sort of a dream of mine.
i want to go paris for no reason. ( definitely not because of PARIS hilton, she sucks to the core)
i want to eat blackforest cake from some part of europe, heard from my aunt that it was fantastic!!!!!
i want to go france!!! (after reading da vinci code)
i want to see small alleys and old bulidings (due to the failure of singapore's preservation plan)
so i shall save my money from now, earn money from holidays and hopefully get enough money. i want to travel the world but i am contented with the experience i have with me now.
note: boy, you are going with me to europe no matter what!