Konichiwa!(think i got the speeling wrong again... nvm...) Recently, i realise that all my "act cute" usage of english grew on me... Stuffs like spelling "spelling" as "speeling", "english" as "england", "today" as "todae" and having "la", "le", "wor" peppers within my sentence... So when i was typing my resume, proper report or proper emails, i had a hard time correcting this errors. So frm(erm sorry, from) now on, i will try to cut off this bad habit of mine and blog in proper english. Sms too.

Ya ya ya i know, i have not been blogging recently. Reason? I got a bunch of new games from my friend, xephyris, and i havent even played through all of them yet. And i got it from him last weekend. With so many games to go through, i think they will last me for quite some time. And i got a couple of anime dvds from him too. So guys, if u r really waiting to read my blog(but i guess ppl like tat dont exist anymore...), please be reminded that i do have a life. If u see me blogging too often, it is either i have no life then, or i am very pissed off with some issues or such.

Okie, so recently, i started to know my school teachers better. Pity i am leaving them at the end of next month. Oh well, but it is good while it last. Anyway, i begin to realise that teachers are human afterall. You know the awe we held teachers in when we were young? Nah, all of them are just plain humans, with their own quirks and habits. Some are damn messy, so messy that my room and my girl girl room combine, oso lose to their cubicle. Imagine how small a cubicle is(dilbert liken it to a "human cage") and she(yes, the teacher's a she) can be some utterly messy, her stuff formed a wall at the entrance of the cubicle. Imagine... And i had a hard time finding her CPU as it will be buried underneath books, shoes, students' art pieces, u name it, u can pratically find it there.

But anyway, what i wanted to blog about is the talk i had with some of the male teachers. You might have guessed that there are some christian male teachers in my school. So like what they are prone to, they invited me to their church. But the thing is, that church is a semi detached residential area converted into one. Hmmmm... Sounds familiar right? Like buddist temples and stuff right? But what i think after i know that even christians do this is that they havent register their practise as a church. And the guy in charge of that semi detached church is not a full-fledge pastor. Or maybe a pastor drop-out. Cause if you register and you are a full-fledge pastor and someone big in the christian commitee recommend you, think it is quite easy to find fundings(just see how city harvest ppl donate. think they can open a few more churches, or even one with swimming pool and babe shows. WOW!) and build one from scratch. Just look at the nuimber of churches in singapore. You find them in almost any corner. Even dipilated cinemas!(Read: the origins of City Harvest)

Like i was saying, they tried to convert me and i just replied that i am an atheist.(recently, i read an article on ppl who are atheist. it mention that all hard core atheist who are well known and had a following are people who are disappointed or have some problems with their fathers(father here refers to their own father, the one that gave his sperm to create that atheist). Hmmm... it further explains that since they are disappointed with their fathers, they just couldnt have the concept of having a god, cause they are scared that god might disappoint them, just like what their real life fathers did. Interesting article. But i bet it is written by a christians, or worse still, a mormon that is keen on destruction of all non christians. hmmm... if you are wondering, i too am quite disappointed with my father. very interesting. but i still feel that christians are a bunch of sissys whos daddy spoilt them to bits, which inturn created a bunch of misfits who dont mingle well with the general public. so they created this mass on sundays, bible studies, cell group meetings to get ppl together, so when other ppl see them, its like they have damn lots of friends. but tell me, just how many of them are "real" friends that stick to u, that are willing to lay down their lifes for u? they might do things just short of that but it is because of their religion. just how many of them really feel so when they help u? or do they fear retribution?) And some of them didnt understand the meaning of atheist! Man! It was like a joke, and they thought that it is another new religion or denomination of the christian community. Xephyris, u train me well. For ppl who dont know what atheist is, it is someone who dont believe in god. They believe in chaos theory, reincarnate, evolution, big bang, anything that doesnt have a spritual being overseeing everything. Of course, and there is the agnostic.(nonono, it is not autistic, the mental illness where little kids lives in their own world) Agnostic is one that couldnt give a damn if god exist or not. These are normally people who sits on the fence, dont noe whether to believe or not to believe.

So he ask me to go to his church for a visit. Like always, i answered that i was a christian long long time ago, but i back slided after i realise u have to go to church every sunday. Hell, sunday is there for u to have fun but this pastor, who had fun from monday to saturday, will try his best to bore u to death on ur so impt day of the week.(man, i couldnt keep up typing proper english. Heck, just f**k it, i type wat i want. Man feels damn shiok!) And i got this weird habit of mine, that whenever i am seated in a church bench(there is a proper name for it but i forgot) i just couldnt control myself and laugh all the way, which in turn shakes the whole bench and disturbs all the others. Nononoono the pastor is not a "botak" or anything,but in any church, whenver i sit down, i will laugh uncontrollably. Hmmmm maybe i am the anti christ after all....

So i told his i back slide and finish reading the bible(which i actually did, one of the feat i did. I read the student bible and alot of ppl say i dont understand it. U see, christians got this weird habit of gathering together and study the bible. So their reasoning is if they talk so long to really understand the bible, how can i finish the same task when then i havent even completed secondary school? An atheist cant help it when christians are stupid. But they are study bible in the interpretation of the one that taught them. Similarly, i study it in the interpretation of the one that wrote the student bible.) and i still dont believe it. An omnipotent being created the universe? Evolution just seems more feasible. Religious tolerance? I actually practise it, if those stupid christians keep to themselves and stop bugging me(hard core atheist) to join their clan. I find christians to be a bunch of misfits who dont have friends outside, so they create all these funny stuff to gather and mingle. Cause they know that humans are social creatures and humans dig gatherings and attention. Try tat on ur girl girl.

And from my experience, all christians who heard wat i said will be stunned jialat jialat.Why? To them, how can one back silde from such a "GOOD" religion? And i think that 90 percent of the whole christian community dont noe wat evolution is. Or just noe a bit on it.(you see, those d*mb f*cks spend their time reading and studying bibles, they dont have time to read around) Then all of them will try to reason with me. Some will say, "so u believe we are decended from monkeys?". My reply,"u got a discrimination against monkeys? i find them to be cuter than u(and more intelligent too)". Or they try to say that carbon dating is full of loop holes. Different condition of the environment affects it and the world then and now have different environmentall condition. True but the bible isnt full of loopholes? Who is the one that says if the bible didnt further explains the part, it requires u to have faith? This is the test for faith? Or they say stuff like, "do u noe, just before darwin(the father of evolution theory, but strictly speaking, ppl before him already came up with this theory) died, he said there must be god, or something similar and died?" My take,"ppl are a bunch of beings who gets overwhem easily. Try lying on a great plain, staring at the sky, with nothing in ur peripheral view, just the sky. u will feel as if the sky is falling down. so when u r dying, and u noe it, it is understandable that u will think through alot of things, find that there is no one theory for everything, and dump it all to god. makes life easier." (and yes, the reference to the sky failing has nothing to do with the reason i stated. it is just their to fake those d*mb f*cks.) Or stuff like,"even einstein believes in god." Ya ya he is a jewish for christ sake!. Hahahahahahahaha

So after some debating, i realise that my conversational english sucks to the core. And my written arent that great either. Sianz....But one thing i want to state is even though i dislike christianity, i find it nessesary. Ppl with weak will power, no friends, confused with wat their life is about, just about any ppl with problems need a religion. It keeps u in check and gives u purpose in life. It is good it that sense but i believe in survival of the fittest. Misfits should die and burn in h*ll! They should be glad that i just didnt listen to them. Wat if i wanted to convert them to atheism? Not believing in god is good as i can slander him in my blog and get away with it. Ignorance is bliss. But if god really exist, he should make us all believe in him. But like they say, god didnt want that to happen as then, we will all be one minded, or similar. So u r telling me god likes chaos? He likes wat he sees now? Nvm. With so many things unanswered, i just wish that we will all b*rn in h*ll.

So much for this issue of blog. Like always, dont get offended by my blog. If so, dont read it. Thats all. Bye.